You shouldn't feel insecure, that should be me. Because in my whole life, I have never met anyone like you. Someone I could trust with everything, who knows me inside out even though we've known each other for less than 2 years and we've only gotten closer recently. I don't talk to anyone else the way I talk to you. I've never bared my heart to anybody else because I was too afraid of getting hurt. And I've let myself be vulnerable to you, not because i'm not afraid anymore, but because I think it's worth it. When you forget me, and we drift away, the pain will be worth it because I got so much happiness out of being close to you. The way I talk to you makes me feel more attached to you, more dependent on you and the way you talk to me... Well, nobody else has ever talked to me that way. I feel lost and insecure when i'm not talking to you and it scares me. You make me so happy, but in the end I know that you'll be the only one who has the power to really hurt me. I hope you know that i'll never leave you, because i'm too scared to lose you.

This week has been so hectic and LONG. So on Monday and Tuesday I was so sick, I felt like crap. SOOO much homework oh my GOD. And tests, there were like three tests this week? On top of that giant mountain of homework... I've been sleeping at 1 plus for the past few days, probably not wise seeing as I just recovered. Anyway, this week's been an emotional roller coaster ride. Bloody hormones. Don't really feel like blogging anymore. I'm scared of who will read even though I know nobody does, it's better to be safe than sorry. I think i'm gonna go back to writing in my diary. *sigh* Safer at least. Bye blogger, you will now be used for unimportant purposes ha ha.

You don't have a right to judge me. It was my secret to tell.

I know this is a little late, but HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE! Valentine's Day was awesome this year, i'm really gonna miss Valentine's Day in TK, i'm very sure no other school does the same thing we do (: You know, the past few weeks have gotten me thinking. I really should stop insulting TKGS, it's a great school. The kind of culture we have is one of a kind, i'm sure (: Haha yep anyway, I seriously think i've got the best, best friends in the world. Mel sent me a letter, in her beautiful handwriting and put in all her punctuation and spelt everything correctly FOR ONCE, i'm so proud of her HAHA. Three pages full of love, I felt so touched, by the end of it I was crying like a baby (,: And then yesterday, I received Dylan's e-mail. *sigh* I was speechless. I can't believe how amazing all my friends are. I couldn't be more grateful for the amount of love I felt yesterday. I love Valentine's Day (:

You deserve everything that's coming to you, you motherfucker. I hope that ugly excuse for a boyfriend breaks your heart. You think you're so fucking high and mighty? Go to fucking hell slut. Nobody even likes you. How can you even dare to go around threatening people with the ability to 'ruin their social lives'? The only thing you're ruining is their opinion of you, which by the way is already in the gutter. You think you're so superior to everyone just cos you get guys well HELLO anyone could get a guy if they behaved like you. You're disgusting. Please just fuck off.

Nothing much happened today. Had roll-offs, bowled okay (: Better than the last time anyway, i'm getting so bad I swear. Average 161 :/ Oh well, i've gotta train harder I guess. Okay the next part of this post is probably gonna come out sounding extremely superficial and annoying, so if I annoy you, please skip. Actually, if I annoy you WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE? Oh wait, that's right, nobody comes here, sorry, I forgot I was forgettable and insignificant.

Fact: I need to lose weight. Plain hard truth: I am fat, no don't deny it. Because I am, and I know it. Why? Because I am just so damn lazy and useless. I have no self control. I have no self discipline. Bottom line? Just die. And yes, I know you don't care. You say you do, but you don't. Actions speak louder than words. I changed my mind, I don't feel like blogging anymore. I'm gonna go wallow in self-pity like the useless shit I am. Bye non-existent readers.

Today just sucked... Seriously, my dad spent the whole morning lecturing me in the car about how I have to listen to more educational things instead of my music. And he does this EVERY morning but today was special, he didn't just talk till he'd dropped both my sisters off, no, he carried on until he dropped ME off. Normally, he'd just stop once we'd dropped off Shu Yi, but no, he continued going on and on, repeating his points until he dropped me off 20min later.

First period was Lit, not so bad, then Amaths, not too bad either. Actually all the periods before recess were okay. Had our first study period during PE hehe Shaikha, Hazel and I went to the library and we studied. Sort of, we finished our Amath homework (: Well, Hazel did, most of it anyway...

Hahaha then had recess! :D I am seriously just IN LOVE with our clique lunchboxes, I think it's the cutest thing EVER. Hahahaha! Yep, OCT (I mean her mum) made fried food haha so we could still have fried food tuesday even though we weren't eating canteen food (:

Then after recess we had Chinese and that's when things started to go awry... Ponned lesson with Colette, Hazel, Jess, Rena, Anita and Jane. AND WE GOT CAUGHT. Of all days... Urgh... I felt so bad, Ms. Chong was so disappointed in me ): She said "I am very disappointed in you. Of all the students in this class I wouldn't have expected you to skip lesson." OMG I felt so fucking bad... Ruined my mood for the entire day ): Got 20/40 for Emaths CA, was pretty happy but I still need to do better.

Anyway, it's almost 12am and i've gotta wake up early to scramble eggs for tmr's recess HAHA bye! (: