The City That Never Sleeps
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posted : Friday, May 22, 2009
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I hate it when people say, "My life sucks, I want to end it." Especially when they have no reason to. If you think your life sucks, look at mine. When I was in Primary 2, a disk in my neck slipped, I couldn't move my neck for 2 months and I had to wear a cloth brace to school, sleep in it and I couldn't take it off. What's worse, after those two months of having that brace, I was without it for a week before the disk slipped again. I had to go for surgery. When I was in Primary 3, my mother was diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer. She went through radiation and surgery to remove the lump, she recovered and the cancer supposedly 'went away'. And then, in Primary 5, my father had a heart attack. And this year, my mother was diagnosed with stage 2 cancer again. Tomorrow, she's going for surgery to have her whole left breast removed. Sometimes, people don't wake up genneral anaesthesia.

So when you say that your life sucks, what's the definition? Your boyfriend broke up with you? Your parents are pissing you off? You did badly in an exam? You're fighting with your friend? When I step out of my house, I try to put on a smile. Or at least, a happy disposition. Not because i'm happy, but because when I cry, it's hard to stop. So when I do badly in exams, I don't really cry. Because doing badly in exams, is nowhere near what i've been through. I never thought of suicide as a possible thing, what if my mum or dad died? Who would look after my sisters? They can't even fry a bloody egg, let alone look after themselves. No matter how annoying they are, they're still my sisters.

How many of you can say that you've been through that many hospital trips, whether for yourself or for your family? How many of you can say that both your parents have been through hell and back, physically? How many of you can say that you went through surgery at the age of 7? Not many. So when you say you want to commit suicide, what's the reason? And is it even worth it?
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