"I always used to look at being different as a bad thing, but I’ve learned that you need to take pride in the fact that you are unique." - Adam Lambert
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posted : Sunday, August 23, 2009
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Went out with my dad today, thinking i'd be getting a new phone. BUT, it wasn't meant to be... *sigh* He promises me things ALL the time, but in the end, I never actually end up having those things... In May (my birthday), he told me he'd get me my phone in July. JULY IS LONG GONE. Do I have a new phone? No, and how old is the phone I have? Hmm... Let's see... Around 6 or 7 years old now :) Most people, own phones that are less than a year old. So now i'm getting my phone in DECEMBER, yeah sure, let's see if THAT happens.Okay, so yeah, then he tries to appease me by offering me a Macbook Pro. Okay, fine, YAY! But NO, we walk all the way up to the apple store in Great World City and we walk around and talk to the guy who's advertising. 10 min later, we walk out. Macbook Pro? No show. Why? Cos there wasn't a discount on it. When am I getting it? Oh I don't know. NEVER?You see, what really bothers me is not that I don't have a new phone or that I don't have a new computer. What bothers me is that i'm the only one among the three daughters he has that hasn't gotten my birthday present. Oh NOOOOO the others got theirs on time, EARLY EVEN. Rui Yi already HAS her new phone and her birthday is in a MODYLAN OMG I LOVE YOU YOU'RE THE BEST!!! :DNTH. Mine was long gone FOUR MONTHS AGO.Ok, yeah, he's awesome bla bla bla and he doesn't owe me anything bla bla bla. WHATEVER. Even if he gave me a fucking chocolate bar i'd be happy, it's the fact he doesn't even care that bothers me. And EVERY time he talks to us about my mum, he goes on and on about how I, ME, am not doing ANYTHING to help. I fetch her water, I cook dinner sometimes, I clean my room, I do my homework, I do EVERYTHING to give her LESS STRESS. And my sisters? Calls come in EVERYDAY from their school, teachers complaining, vice-principal complaining. ONCE, the PRINCIPAL called to complain about their misbehaviour. And STILL their the apples of their eyes.He's ALWAYS assuming it's ME when things go wrong and that it's THEM when things go right. He ASSUMES that I do EVERYTHING to spite them or to make life difficult for them. Have you ever met a PERFECT person? I haven't. Everytime I do something good, he brushes it off. Everytime I do something WRONG, he won't stop talking about it. WELL FUCK HIM. I can't wait to get out of here. I can't wait to get awayy from this stupid, screwed up family. I don't care, i'm GOING to boarding school. Whether I have to throw fits and be a spoiled teenager to do it. I don't care, i'm GOING.
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Zhen Yi 15
10 May 1995
TK Bowler!
