"I always used to look at being different as a bad thing, but I’ve learned that you need to take pride in the fact that you are unique." - Adam Lambert
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posted : Tuesday, September 8, 2009
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You know how a lot of people can come up with all these really amazing phrases and sentences to express themselves? I can't. And yeah, I wish I could. Because the truth is, I have no idea how to express them and it HURTS. It hurts so bad, the type of pain that you feel so acutely but you have no idea how to get rid of. The type of pain that just eats at you and reaches every part of your body. I smile when i'm sad, when I just can't take the pathetic self-pity. So I smile, and I laugh and I act like everything's fine. You know those times when you see me in class, and I'm sitting there, staring into space or looking out the window, with a blank expression on my face? Those are the times i'm really happy. Those are the times I feel normal, like i'm not putting on a show for people. People don't understand teenagers and it's not because they can't. It's because they don't want to. They brush it off like it's just an everyday thing, which it is. Sometimes. They think, or 'remember' that their teenage years were when they made the most mistakes and they blame it on their feelings. Every wrong thing they did, they blame on their feelings. But why? Why would you blame it on your feelings? Feelings are neutral. It just depends on how your mind works, if you want to do someting negative about it, then you will. So when most people see teenagers who cut themselves, or are aggressive, they say, "Oh, their teenagers, it's normal." What if it ISN'T. What if the feelings we're feeling are real. It's different, what we're feeling and what they felt are two very different things. Because we're all different people.
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Zhen Yi 15
10 May 1995
TK Bowler!
