"I always used to look at being different as a bad thing, but I’ve learned that you need to take pride in the fact that you are unique." - Adam Lambert
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posted : Sunday, January 23, 2011
title : I wish I didn't feel this way about you.
Don't judge me for talking to others about it. I find comfort in talking to people about my problems. To you it may seem like i'm advertising or showing off or whatever the hell you think i'm doing, but for me it's a way of getting rid of all the confusion and hurt and pain so that i'm free to be happy. To smile because doing anything else would look alien to the people who don't know me well. And yes, I care about what others think of me, I care about what my friends and family think of me because their the ones that matter. Yeah, I can be callous sometimes but I don't mean to be and i'm sorry if i've hurt you. I'm rambling now, but it's okay, it's 1.46am give me a break. There's so much more I want to say, but i'm afraid I won't say it right in my current frame of mind. So i'm going to sleep, if you can call lying in bed for hours haunted by thoughts of her and wondering what's wrong with me, going to sleep. And no, i'm not happy by what i'm feeling for her, even though being around her and having her talk to me makes me happier than anything right now. It's confusing and it's an entirely unwelcome feeling. |
Zhen Yi 15
10 May 1995
TK Bowler!
